Saturday, June 7, 2014

Why, daddy, Why?

Love and understanding are not congruent. I love you, God, but I do not understand you. You understand and love me, yet I still do not understand you.
You allow people of all kinds, million and millions to be killed for minor differences by millions of bigots who sing your praises with knives and hatchets in their hands.
Now, even though everyone dies, I don't understand why you let folks die for being black, red, yellow, gay, gender variant, too  young or old. Why do you allow one set of your children to murder others, usually shouting in your name?
They cite their concern for you, brag of their patriotism, to justify their violence. They honestly believe that they kill to protect the children you gave them.
 They have been convinced that you limit available resources and will give enough only to your chosen ones. They think all others are a threat to their share. Why, daddy, why??

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

August 20, 2013, Tuesday

Good morning. The parks people are running a truck across the grass to the old Point Pleasant Yacht  Club landing. I don't have the slightest idea what they do over there. I'll check later. Making breakfast of fried potatoes and eggs.
Today, I turn to designing a linkage between the rat and the cruiser, a means of connecting them like a train. I will need to have the trolling motor free for docking and for going into locks. I don't think I need to move it from where it is mounted now. So the other end of the raft will automatically become the head of the raft-car. Trains use a coupling that allows both up and down and lateral movement between the train cars. I need to allow even more vertical movement because of waves. Perhaps a floating unit coupled to both raft and cruiser independently?
Then again, maybe two capstans to tighten ropes between the raft and boat, like the barges and their pushers use. Maybe a bumper of rubber or plastic, or even wood between them. My task is complicated by the unused inboard motor port on the cruiser. It is sealed with plywood and sealed with caulking. It is neither strong nor stable. It sticks out a bit and I dare not replace it unless I can dry dock the boat.
OK, wood boards 2x6's drilled and mounted to the two handles that come out of the cruiser's stern. If these are long enough they could be fixed with a single bolt each to the raft deck. I done this way the cruiser can turn even with a motor attached to the swimmers ladder. The boat will turn and the raft will follow with a slightly larger radius. And I can cross between the boats on the boards. Heehaw!
I have some cleats and I can get rope and boards tomorrow when I have money.
If I hook these up first and draw the boats together with rope, I will be able to load plywood and glues and 2x3's into the cruiser by walking through the raft, up the spacer boards and into the cruiser. Tomorrow could be a busy day.
Build the link, replace the cruiser floor, get registration for the raft, put tank and motor on the cruiser somehow, then prepare to leave on Thursday. Yes, Kālu, kale, Thank you father.

August 19, 2013, Monday

Good morning, Daddy. Hazy sky at 6am. Can't tell if there are clouds up there. No water in my leaky pontoon. The leak my have stopped. Thinking about not sealing pontoons at all. Water has fallen 6" in the night. Boater coming in last evening said the Kanawha is turning muddy. The Ohio is already brown with crème colored stripes running its length. My first out fishermen are already backing down the ramp to launch.
Getting cabin cruiser floor measurements today. Buying wood on Wednesday. Scoot has promised to launch the boat for me. Garbage pickup guys for the town have just left. Time to measure.
Walked to the shelter, forgot my towel so I'll walk there again later. No registration yet. Sheriff came by and showed me another cleat hitch and mentioned a book about the Blackfork called "Nail Knot."
Scott and his wife, Margaret came with the renewed registration for the StarCraft, with stickers and registration numbers. They launched the boat and gave me their address and a ride to the library. Whoopee! Overwhelmed.
I will be finished bailing and cleaning out the molds and slime by morning. Hoping the SS check deposits tomorrow. If not I will still have $10 on Wednesday. If it does I'll buy Mike's motor and gas tank.
Walked to the shelter with my towel, great shower and received an invitation to dinner. I was given some stamps to write them letters as I journey.
Good night

Monday, June 2, 2014

August 18, 2013, Sunday

6am and the sky is hazy, but layered, not unlike layers of cheesecloth. Two boats have gone out and it is beginning to rain.
I am writing a song for you: 
Oh, the fish don't cry when the rain comes down
For they're already wet, so they don't frown.
They eat the bugs crawling on the ground
That wash in the water when the rain falls down.
REPEAT until you tire of it.


I may cry, I may frown as trouble is rising all around. Daddy, who loves me from above, wraps me in his perfect love.
Sends his angels don't you see, they are coming to rescue me. Jesus loves me this I know. he, hee.
Now, on to boat design things. A motor pontoon or a motor launch is not fit for sailing. I want sails eventually, because of ecological changes coming. Therefore this pontoon raft will need modification or a complete replacement. How?
Free thinking, brain storming---no critical evaluations. Lower a center pontoon to form a wide keel. Make a keel outright. Use the quarras, or make a side board. in sail mode I would like full length as most efficient
Analyze: mobile side boards best for extending boat, but quarras best for finished length.. OK go with these. Easy mounting made by making a  scabbard-like sheath against existing pontoons.
Add four foot lengths from now on. Because this is cheap and allows both sail and solar collector room. Step mast to 12 foot long 2x6's  with glued 2x4 casing attached. Mast to be removable. Sail of a lanteen type. Maximum deck width 12 feet. Maximum length 50 feet. Then maximum lanteen sail spar length 70 feet, assuming a 60/degree equilateral triangle. If 90* triangle a 74 foot long spar. Both versions flat cut sail with curved free hem. Blanket stitched to 1/4 inch nylon sheet, or polyester. Aluminum pulleys on turnbuckles. use aluminum cleats.
The rain has paused. Cars with voyeur people are about again. I am reading "And Having Writ" and "Blood Brothers." It is muggy, it will rain soon.
Doc brought his boat in and two boys came by with their parents to inspect my raft. I will finish cleaning out the cabin cruiser tomorrow. Thanks for the rain, Lord.
Good night daddy

August 17, 2013, Saturday

If the sky were a forest, the canopy would be formed of mare's tails and the understory of puffy little clouds dotted across the lower sky. The little clouds are painted with rose and orange, while the high cirrus are white. Good morning daddy.
Tons of boaters coming home in the dark, even until 3 in the morning. The next batch starting out at 4:30am. I did not sleep in this morning, did not sleep much at all. Having grapes and cold cereal for breakfast.
My StarCraft 21 foot cabin cruiser pulled into the upper parking lot at 8;30am. Wow. I thanked Scott. He said he will renew the license on Monday, no cost to me. I cleaned out the trash and things that had rotted in the hull. I won't even think about their original compositions. Oh, thank you, I can leave now even if the registration for the raft never comes.
At the library, I found that my bid of $100 for a 10 horsepower outboard motor was the winner. I'll have to walk back there, because I forgot to get the seller's information. Now, if Michael comes through with his motor and gas tank, I'll be very mobile.
You are dealing me such wonderful things. Going for seller's phone number now.
At noon the sky had only thin clouds and at 6pm the thin clouds had become a haze between us and the sun.  I goofed asking one of Kathy's friends about lesbian groups in the area. Her partner is in a custody fight with her ex and such topics are forbidden around her son. I'll apologize over the phone tomorrow. Closing my tarp doors now, will read a little.
Very tired, Good night, Father

August 16, 2013

Playing in my dreams (directing them in part), being an escaping convict, running within a state fair. Slept in until 6:30 am. The two (we just fish all day) guys came down and launched while I walked to get fresh water.
I talked with Nikki at the homeless shelter. Spoke with Tracie who is home with a day off of work, and with the both the City Clerk and one of the firefighters. I let them know that the boat registration is delayed and I'll be here for about another week.
I bought a propane bottle for the stove and now have 22 dollars in the bank, enough to last until the 21st. Five more days until my SS check comes.
Beginning to note cloud formations and weather signs. Small cumulonimbus at noon, clearing at 6pm and only high haze at 8pm.
I was offered a boat ride at about 2pm but declined it as Kathy had said she would come by at 2:30. She did not come, drats.
The water has dropped a foot since lunch-time. There is suppose to be a canoeist name Mary come to camp by me tonight. She is riding in a 17' long kayak down the Ohio River. Hope she makes it by dark.
 She did not. Good night, father.

Sunday, June 1, 2014

November 16, 2013, Happy Birthday Me

It feels like time to move on. I have a need for dirt cheap housing. Which means time to live in a hole or floating on a stream or marchland. perhaps I can invent a combination of both. I also NEED books, so I cannot stray overly far from a library. If I am to be a floating citizen, I will need another boat to act as my tender. If a hole dweller I will need a bike or land vehicle. and if both perhaps both.
So within the first month I should find either land or make a raft of sorts. I land, I dig a ditch and shelter it, If a raft a mooring site.
Whatever shelter, I should get a solar charger, a battery and an inverter to run lights, phone chargers, simple tools. A heater of sorts to cook and warm the air when necessary.
A raft on water needs two sheet of plywood at least 5/8 of an inch thick, connected by some type of wood, probably 2x6's to make an 8x8 foot platform. Nail onion sacks from your local grocer's to the bottom and fill these with capped empty soda bottles. The more bottles the more flotation. Form a shelter from the rain with any type of tarp, plastic or thatch cover. Done with a cost under $50 USD.
In the ground, house. Starting with two parallel ditches about 8 to 10 feet apart. Stretch plastic sheeting between and into the ditches. Refill the ditches to securely hold and tighten the sheeting. Then start digging between the filled ditches to establish a narrow home as deep and I desire.
Use either of these as a shelter while a more permanent structure is built.
On land--- set 2x4's on the outside edges of the two filled ditches. Drive nails or spikes or rebar through these to anchor them to the ground, making sills flat on the ground. Staple the narrow ends of cattle panel welded wire to the inside edge of one of the 2x4 sills. Repeat until as many panels as I desire have been laid out. Starting with the center panel attach a rope to the unstapled end and throw the rope across the already stretched plastic to the other side of the temporary narrow shelter. Pull the rope tight bringing the cattle panel up and then across to the other side. staple its narrow edge to the 2x4 sill. Repeat until all panels have been formed into hoops stapled to the sills.
Now, I will take the plastic sheeting and stapling one edge to the outside of a 2x4 sill stretch it up and over the hoops and staple it to the other sill on its outside edge. Excess plastic can be reburied to let any rain water drain away from the shelter. Expand the original hole, reinforce the walls with wattle and daub, post set into the ground and backed by wooden boards, or bricks. No matter the wall method chosen protect the wall from earth moisture with plastic. Hurrah an infinitely expandable house. Use wood, adobe or plastic to make doors.
Why I am in New Mexico? My friend, Kim, who has never been overly fond of anyone but herself, suffered some physical breakdowns as a result of a new as yet undiagnosed tumor. She needed help caring for her house and dogs, so I began bringing some of my houseboat stuff to her house to store, and helped her get to the Veteran's hospital in Roanoke, VA. She was treated for a blocked bowel and a growth was removed. The staff helped her pass an additional 20 pounds of compacted fecal matter, so she was hospitalized four days. I brought her home and continued helping her as she rested.
I drove Kim to North Carolina and brought a woman who had previously been physically abused to Kim's house with us. I didn't know that Kim has assaulted her previously. It became apparent that she had been lying to the girl over the phone and internet about having successfully taken an anger management program at the VA hospital and being on some calming medications.
The first day back at Kim's rented house, she verbally abused the woman. The second day, Kim felt well enough to return to work. When she came home, Kim threatened and then struck this very passive woman. When I stood between Kim and the woman, Kim walked away but returned with a machete. I would not move aside, so Kim began shouting that I was breaking them up. She accused me of breaking her and her ex-girlfriend, Laurie apart. She then thrust the knife at me. I told her not to do that again. When she turned away, I went to gather my things, because I did not want to stay in that house.
Kim hit the woman again and I put my body between them again. Kim got her knife and swinging it demanded that the woman come outside with her. I followed them outside.
Kim swung the knife at me and I went down the porch steps into the yard. I called 911 on my cellphone and asked for the police.
Kim used the knife to threaten the woman, but did not strike her again. About a 1/2 hour later a police officer came and took the knife from Kim. I waited in the yard while she spoke to the two women.
Additional officers arrived and I was told that I must leave Kim's house. The abused woman had told the officers that I had started the ruckus.
The officers remained on scene as I packed and watched as Pastor Stephen from the Wytheville Lutheran Church arrived. He helped me load about 2/3rds of my things in his small car. I left behind many things, knowing I would not be allowed to retrieve them.
Pastor Steve drove me into Wytheville and contacted the domestic violence folks for me. They put me up in a motel room for four nights while I looked for an apartment to live in.
The abused woman called my cell the first morning and said that Kim had broken her teeth out in the afternoon after I left. Kim had also smashed her phone by throwing it from an Interstate overpass. I told her to hang up and to call 911 even though her phone screen was shattered and it wasn't working well. The police would come.
They did come and she was able to get her things and leave with their help. I called the Veterans and told them that Kim was behaving irrationally. They did not seem too concerned. The abused girl called me and said the police had gotten her back to North Carolina.
At the end of the four nights I had discovered that no apartments or affordable housing would be available in Wytheville for two months. I called my friend, Beth and asked to store what I could not carry on my back and in a rolling suitcase at her house. I then got a ride to the bus station in Max Meadows from the domestic violence counselor. I thanked her. The station attendant charged me a great deal to put the rolling suitcase on the bus and I started toward Denver, Colorado by way of Chicago, IL. Strange routing.
The bus trip was unpleasant, because the medication I took to cure my kidney infection was causing me repeated and persistent diarrhea. I could not sit for even an hour without having to walk to the back of the bus to void. On the fourth day of my bus ride, I arrived in Cheyenne and hitch-hiked to Rock Springs, Wyoming. There I stayed with my friend, Donna. We took a ride through Pinedale, a place where I had once been the pastor. The town has grown considerably. Then we went to Jackson for a brief lunch and onward toward Dubois, Wyoming. We were stalled by a semi-truck sliding across the roadway on it side. We had a wonderful few hours watching the snow fall blanketing the trees. When the road reopened we continued to Dubois.
As I unloaded my things at my daughter's house, she came home to tell me that I could not stay because her husband had decided that trans people like me were not part of their family. I hugged Donna and she started the drive to Lander on her way back to Pinedale. She had driven with me two hundred and fifty miles to let me visit with my daughter, Liz. Now she would drive 250 miles back to her home while I stayed in Dubois. As she drove out of sight, my daughter gave me the news that I was not welcome in her home, but I was welcome to her.
Lis, my not quite two year-old granddaughter, Jordan and I ate dinner at a restaurant. Lis then drove me out to spend a half hour with my son, Joshua. He looked worn down. He chews tobacco now and his wife, Haley was not home. She was working, tending bar in town. Lis gave me a ride to a motel where I spent the night.
In the morning, she brought Jordan by to say goodbye. I hitched a ride out of town. One of the two ladies who gave me my first ride of the day, worked as an aide in my daughter's school. She had broken her hip and was going to New Mexico with her sister to recover. She told me my son-in-law, Jared was not very friendly and she could understand why he would shun me. They also told me that they had worried about picking me up, but they had a brother/sister, who had just begun transitioning. They gave me a ride one hundred plus miles to Lander, Wyoming. I lost my phone on my next ride, it probably slipped out of my bag as I got out of that car. A farmer from Farson took me to Eden and an oilfield hand gave me a ride to Rock Springs.
I found a payphone and called Donna, who let me stay two more days at her house. She made me a little cake for my birthday.
Thanks Daddy.